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Chicken/Egg Question: Does sensory input result in actions identifiable as behaviors ultimately creating character? Or does character determine behaviors that in turn impact one's interpretation of sensory input?

My initial thought is that the in-your-face senses of sight and sound are more likely to influence one's actions and reactions thus having a greater impact on one's character; whereas one's character is more likely to call on and interpret the more subtle senses of touch, taste, and smell. The extended suggestion is that if one were less reactive and more proactive towards the in-your-face senses a stronger case could be made for free-will; (some may argue that it would still be an 'illusion' of free-will, but nonetheless, most of us act as if perception is reality, so ...).

I have taken these thoughts on the hierarchy and significance of sensory input and applied parallels to the Ingredients of Happiness as originally identified in 'this previous post' and on the 'Periodic Happiness Table of Elements'. Pleasure, Enjoyment, and Human Interaction are the in-your-face Ingredients; the others (Learning, Growth, Attention and Focus, Complexity, and Depth) are more likely to be called upon by you, granting a deeper sense of satisfaction and a greater opportunity to close the gap on Truth, Wisdom, and Happiness. This is partially (perhaps largely) because of the greater efforts and by association the greater rewards inherent in a proactive process. I believe we are potentially more reactive and/or spontaneous with Pleasure/Comfort, Enjoyment, and Human Interaction though these three Ingredients can (and should) be a thoughtful, proactive process whenever possible. The nature of the other Ingredients (I believe) is more conducive to thoughtful planning and appreciation (much like the more subtle senses), though Attention and Focus can at times be a result of 'getting caught up in the moment' and in these times can be a pleasant surprise. It is a fact that the greater the effort, the greater the value placed on the reward(s) or outcome of a particular set of actions or behaviors; thus making the case that proactive efforts are more likely to close the gap on Truth, Wisdom, and Happiness than the reactive efforts more commonly associated with Pleasure and Human Interaction. That is not to state that one should avoid Pleasure/Comfort (tempered by moderation) or Human Interaction as these are valid, necessary, unavoidable, and potentially productive elements; it is only to suggest (again) that one approach all elements with as much careful thought and consideration as is possible given the circumstance.

Sensory input in this empirical existence impacts all aspects of one's search for Happiness and with proper guidance is relevant to all of the aforementioned Ingredients. That guidance begins with understanding, and in that vein it helps to know how sensory input is processed. I'm certain these thoughts are not new, but their organization is, (for me), helpful.

I have identified five pathways through which sensory experience travels in order to influence behaviors, become subject to interpretation, and potentially impact one's character. I believe the art of transforming a sensory experience is accomplished through one or more of the following:

1. primal instinct
2. emotional reaction
3. foolish or creative reflection
4. rational thought
5. intuition

It is interesting to consider various sensory experiences and the path or paths they may take. For example, the process of food preparation/cooking to consumption/eating could potentially run the gamut of all five. Regardless of which pathway(s) the sensory input initially jumps on, transformation must travel through an empirical, cognitive, or transcendental center housed within the individual. And (continuing the cooking analogy) much like the heat in cooking, these internal centers (mind/body/heart/spirit) serve as a catalyst for transformation by reducing the sensory experience into more palatable thoughts, resulting in instinctive, acceptable, or calculated actions and behaviors. Similar or like-minded behaviors over time then identify one's individually, recognizable, consistent demeanor or character. And as one's character solidifies through Learning and Growth, one becomes capable of guiding/controlling the sensory input in order to maintain consistency in behaviors and be true to oneself; or true to one's facade as the case may be.

When I find sensory input controlling or guiding me, more so than I am interpreting and guiding sensory input, there are certain activities I turn to that are helpful in reversing that flow. The following are activities that calm my senses and encourage generative transformations:

• Reading
• Writing
• Cooking
• Music
• Walking
• Swimming

There is a lot of interconnectedness going on in this week's thoughts, with the overriding theme seemingly 'transformation'. From an accumulation of small bits of empirical data to activities, behaviors, and formation of character, via instinctive, emotional, reflective, rational, and intuitive processes, transformation appears to be an unending process flowing in and around all aspects in all directions. I have found it more difficult to control or guide these processes in the midst of numerous and/or overwhelming inputs; hence the need for the activities listed above and the mental structuring of the processes.

I have found myself turning to the calming activities from above frequently of late, and unfortunately have also on occasion turned to mind-numbing, futile, or destructive activities that only provide a short-term illusion of tranquility, (lower-case) happiness, or control. I need to avoid short-term illusion and oblivion, and continue my quest for Truth, Wisdom, and Happiness via the more thoughtful, structured, proactive, and constructive processes that actually contribute to the search. I need to consistently and continuously heighten my awareness; and that is my (contributory) hope with each new, weekly post.

The 2 scenarios below are from the post 'Risking Happiness':

1. I give to and take from the moment in the active hope that it will propel me into a larger, deeper future. Or ...
2. I hibernate in the moment from the paralyzing fear that my future will be deemed inadequate.

Two weeks ago I admitted spending more time of late in scenario #2 above, than in scenario #1. I examined my hesitancy to take risks, discovered that the judgments being handed down to me were from me, and ended the post 'thinking about' the value of innovation vs. the fear of risk.

(Note - by paralyzing fear, I am referring to stagnation, fear of risk, and lack of empirical growth; not a fear of everyday social interaction / work / life.)

Throughout this site I have encouraged everyone to question everything. I have discovered that living this philosophy may at times induce one to question oneself to the point of numbing uncertainty or paralyzing fear (as defined above). I have extended these thoughts to the following question: If I recognize/acknowledge/understand that I do not have all the answers and that I know very little, then what have I got to lose? If I am to play the fool anyway, the audience should get their money's worth; right? It seems appropriate to insert here this excerpt from the previous post 'A Fool for Happiness':

"Yea, though I walk through the Valley of the Shadow of Fools
I will fear no folly; for thou art fools with me.
Thy nod and thy laugh, they comfort me.
We preparest a stable disparity in the presence of mass obedience.
They disjoint our heads with feckless toil; yet my thoughts runneth over.

Surely I shall follow Wisdom and Truth all the days of my life,
and I will seek the house of Happiness forever."

It is up to you to decide if thou art a fool with me, or if thou art they.

I want this discovery to be liberating but it will not be until I make it tangible through behaviors. I have verbalized assault plans to significant others in order to hold myself accountable. I intend to conquer this fear of risk through positive, ethical actions in the active hope that the result will be empirical growth through innovation. And if the result is that I am deemed a fool, then I have not lost ground. It is more truthful to be recognized as a fallen fool than to blend in as a faceless phony.

Now I need to walk the walk; or trip and fall on my face, as the case may be ...

The purpose of searching for Truth and Wisdom in this empirical existence is to close the gap on (upper-case) Happiness; i.e. that Happiness that transcends this lifetime; that Happiness that one can only catch the occasional fleeting glimpse, of. Though (in their purest forms) Truth, Wisdom, and Happiness are unattainable, functionally speaking, the fact that we are consciously aware of their existence encourages the quest; which in turn adds meaning and purpose to this life through learning and growth, and the addition of complexity and depth. (I believe there must be an ultimate uncaused first cause - I will call it, Perfection.) So the likelihood of upper-case Happiness is relegated to fleeting, relative moments, but the functional likelihood of upper-case Happiness, as it operates in this empirical reality, is defined by the usefulness of that search which in turn depends upon the focus of the individual and their ability to balance empirical reality with transcendental consideration. Simply put, the difference between Upper-Case Happiness and Operative Upper-Case Happiness is that Operative Upper-Case Happiness is applicable to one's daily existence - (it is utilitarian and more directly related to the search or journey); whereas Upper-Case Happiness is beyond (transcends) one's daily grasp.

With these thoughts I have come up with a theory and formula (very rough draft) that connects one's 'Operative Upper-Case Happiness' (OUCH) with their sense of reality. I do not intend this as a judgment of one's choices that help them through their day, but rather as a learning tool and guide to encourage me to stay within the parameters of reality as defined by the formula and theorizing below. I have set these parameters according to my sense of reality and as I gather data, my sense of reality could slide one way or the other; though I doubt by much. I have only tested this on a handful of people, but so far the results are interesting. Here it is ...

Theory of (lower-case) happiness and reality and its applicabilty to one's search for (upper-case) Happiness; or ThrasH:

'Operative Upper-Case Happiness' = ('Actual Likelihood of Unexpected Setback' / 'Perceived Likelihood of Unexpected Setback') + 'basic everyday lower-case happiness'

OUCH = (ALUS / PLUS) + belch

ALUS = 7.5; always a constant.

PLUS scale is any positive rational number up to and including 20.

belch scale is any positive rational number up to and including 2.

For best results the formula and the ALUS constant should not be revealed until an individual identifies their PLUS # and belch # per the scale parameters and instructions below, by asking the following 2 questions:

1. "On a scale of 0 to 20, (using positive rational numbers, with 20 being the most likely), in any specific given situation how do you perceive the potential likelihood of one or more unexpected setbacks?"
2. "On a scale of 0 to 2 (using positive rational numbers, with 2 being the highest rating), how would you rate your basic everyday good cheer, satisfaction, or happiness; i.e. lower-case happiness? (Note - you should consider the opinions of significant others, and time you spend alone, when answering this question)."

Decimals and fractions are acceptable for both of the scales above.

Conclusion - Successful OUCH depends on a functionally cheerful or functionally skeptical sense of reality. There are other behavior groupings that are functional, but will not encourage a serious search for Truth and Wisdom.

A Functionally Skeptical Perspective is indicated by an OUCH score ranging from 1.65 to 2.0. A Functionally Cheerful Perspective is indicated by an OUCH score of 2.0 to 2.6.

Those individuals within the range of 1.65 to 2.6 are more likely to question the status quo and understand the difference between upper-case Happiness and lower-case happiness as well as the importance of one's search for Truth and Wisdom.

A score above 2.6 indentifies an individual who believes they have (or an individual who does have) more control than is possible or ethically justifiable; and/or one who believes that positive thinking, superiority, entitlement, or other intangibles have considerable, tangible influence, whereas the actual influence is often the product of one's force of personality and their deluded thought; and/or one who is simply not a planner or is somewhat to totally oblivious of reality; (behavior groupings include: obliviously cheerful to obliviously dysfunctional, or a politician to a power-hungry control freak, or a functional narcissist to a dysfunctional narcissist).

A score below 1.65 identifies a person who has an unrealistically strong sense of justice, and/or may believe the world is against them; (behavior groupings include: simply angry, or hatefully dysfunctional, or paranoid).

The formula operates on the premise that the PLUS norms range from 5 to 10, and that the belch norms range from 0.9 to 1.1. Additionally the belch scale (being 10% of the PLUS scale) acknowledges the influence of everyday (lower-case) happiness (good cheer/satisfaction), but only operates as a hiccup (or belch) in its influence on (upper-case) Happiness; yet because of it's ability to widen the range, it has (on an everyday basis) a greater influence than it should have because it distracts one from their search for Truth and Wisdom.

I identified the range of 'Functional' Skepticism/Cheerfulness as 1.65 to 2.6, but would add that I believe it to be healthier, more effective, and more realistic if one were on the lower end of that range.

When evaluating a score, one can focus on the PLUS and belch separately to differentiate between oblivious, controlling, or narcissist, and angry, hatefully dysfunctional, or paranoid. I have not gathered enough data to quantify these characteristics or to even know if this is the entire range of behavioral possibilities.

So far the range of OUCH scores I have gathered run from a low of 1.55 to a high of 3.5 with a significant majority falling in the normal range. The process has triggered interesting conversation and debate, and reminded me that there are those who disagree with the degree of analysis, study, and thought I believe is necessary for inner peace and exoteric goodness. That's okay ... I doubt they change my mind, but it will allow me insight into just how much others disagree. I will continue to gather data and if I am significantly influenced by this new line of thought, you will likely see future posts on the topic. And if it turns out to simply be a passing amusement, or if I find serious or fatal flaws ... it has been a beneficial exercise in thought.

There is always something out there waiting to be discovered; wanting to be written. Through 80+ weeks, I have never written ahead. I've always waited to see what cries out for attention. I do occasionally refer to random notes (that did not make it to these pages) from past weeks, and I am frequently inspired by thinkers from the past through current study/readings. This is all consistent with the (frequently-stated) premise that having learned from the past, one should live in the moment, for the future.

This week (amongst other things) I have realized that I am surprised at the surprise of each new discovery. The degree of amazement varies from 'cool...' to 'WOW!' but looking back, it is always there.

This week I have explored some dark places (both cavernous and claustrophobic) and I have discovered a new facet of inner peace. Perhaps it has been this dichotomy that has prompted this sense of wonder, in turn prompting me to more fully comprehend and appreciate surprise.

Additionally, the act of putting my thoughts on paper (so to speak) helps (me) to clarify what may have otherwise been a fleeting thought. I have been accused of (or credited with) over-thinking / over-analyzing, and comparatively speaking, it is true. Some see this attribute as a hindrance to productivity, efficiency, and/or everyday (lower-case) happiness. I see it as an aid, adding depth and complexity, in my search for Truth, Wisdom, and ultimately (upper-case) Happiness.

Another new (re)discovery/realization this week is my tendency to be human as illustrated by my fluctuation between the 2 scenarios below:

1. I give to and take from the moment in the active hope that it will propel me into a larger, deeper future. Or ...
2. I hibernate in the moment from the paralyzing fear that my future will be deemed inadequate.

Too often of late, I have found myself in the latter scenario. And the interesting part is - I am the one handing down the judgments. It is time to take some (well-calculated) risks. (See - even in the midst of these thoughts on discovery and surprise, I can't quite 'completely' let myself go - the risks must be well-calculated.)

I have the instinct of a hunter-gatherer. I have evolved into a semi-social learner/facilitator in order to survive. Now it is time for the next evolutionary step - Innovation; which means risk, uncertainty, and laughing in the face of fear; (okay, perhaps I will just sheepishly grin as I sneak past fear). Regardless, it is time I more definitely (and defiantly) place myself in scenario #1 above.

Other connected thoughts this week ...

An examination of Tolerance: Tolerance must begin with an acknowledgment that 'I' may not have all the answers. Tolerant behavior must be devoid of arrogance, disdain, condescension, ridicule, scorn, and all other like-minded synonyms. Tolerant thought is (at best) very difficult, and for some, impossible. I would maintain that intolerant behavior is reprehensible, but in so doing I would be practicing intolerance.

An examination of Passion and Enthusiasm: Passion is more carefully thought out and more deeply felt. Enthusiasm can describe a personality trait or characteristic of an individual, whereas I believe that passion is more commonly associated with a concept, object, or person that one is passionate about or exhibits passion for. Passion is selective and exclusive. Enthusiasm is broader and more inclusive. Passion is more sincere and honest.

I came to these conclusions contrasting Passion and Enthusiasm as a result of a recent personality profile assessment that showed my natural inclination is as far away from enthusiasm as one can possibly be without falling off the edge of the world. I agree with this, but still find myself displaying characteristics of enthusiasm in certain sets of circumstances, and decided the commonality in these situations is a deeply-felt conviction for the importance of specific objects, concepts, values, or significant other individuals. Obviously, since this is my natural inclination, I would prefer passion over enthusiasm. The unfortunate connection to the previous discussion above (on scenarios #1 and #2), is my hesitancy to take innovative risk, as reflected by time spent in scenario #2.

Conclusion - I am averse to uncertainty and risk which dampens enthusiasm, which in turn discourages innovation. And to bring things full-circle, I love the surprise of discovery, and I need to trust others' tolerance and increase my tolerance for potential personal failure. If I would (at least occasionally) focus on surprise, active hope, and maybe (this is hard for me to say) everyday (lower-case) happiness, I may be more open to innovation.

I need to think about it ...

Dear World,

Please hold my hand. My Mommy and Daddy did for lots of years when I was crossing the street, or ascared to go to the bathroom by myself. But now I find myself away from Mommy and Daddy and I need you to hold my hand. I have a lot of good reasons for not being reliable or not meeting expectations, but you make it even harder when you get mad or say I am whining or making excuses. You should be nicer.

Sincerely,
Caprice

Dear Caprice,

I completely understand your need for security and I would like to hold your hand; when I am able.

As your Mommy or Daddy I will hold your hand less and less frequently as you grow older, but when you are having a tough time you are welcome to come running into my arms for a big hug and I will hold your hand as we talk things through.

As your teacher I will hold your hand more frequently in the early stages of learning, but less and less so as you learn and grow, at which time I will resort to gentle nudges and words of encouragement. But I will also insist on a certain amount of accountability and self-sufficiency.

As your employer I will hold your hand (but not very often) for about two weeks; (if I have the time). At that point you are welcome to ask for instruction, direction, and occasional guidance, but really, you're pretty much on your own. I will expect you to do your job. If you insist on hand-holding, I am more likely to cut off my hand, wish you good luck, and send you on your way. I can grow another hand.

As your government I will hold your hand if you fill out lots of forms, spend hours in government offices, and somehow convince one or more drones of bureaucracy that you are a special case in dire need of hand-holding. You must also agree to become a nameless, faceless number, and know that once you are in the system we will hold your hand so tightly that you will most likely not be able to escape our grasp.

As your friend I encourage you to show compassion, consideration, and respect, through empathic listening, and perhaps we can find some time to hold each other's hand.

I know some of this sounds harsh and you may not want to hear it, but this is my way.

Sincerely,
The World

Dear World,

Thank you for your response. You are right - I do not want to hear what you are saying. I was brought up to think that you revolve around me and I could bend you to my will by simply calling on the power of 'ME'. I remember in third grade we had an entire week dedicated to 'The Importance of Me' and though I think the other kids participated I know I did the best because I got an 'A' which meant I was the most important. In fact all the way through high school I was constantly told I could do anything and be anything I wanted. So now I need you to hold my hand. Thank you for reconsidering.

Sincerely,
Caprice

Dear World,

I wrote you yesterday and you still haven't responded. I insist that you respond at once or I will have to address my concerns with your Supervisor.

Sincerely,
Caprice

Dear Universe,

Please see the attached thread of correspondence with The World. It has been two days with no response and I am rapidly losing patience. Please respond immediately or address these concerns with The World so we may resolve this situation. Thank you.

Sincerely,
Caprice

Dear Caprice,

I have looked over your request and I must agree with The World that reality does not allow for excessive hand-holding. From my (much larger) perspective I would say The World has been very generous, and I would recommend you pursue your concerns and seek resolution from within. Truth and Wisdom begin within the individual and it is up to each individual to let that search lead them to inner peace and extend from there to exoteric goodness and transcendental reasoning, in the (active) hope that one will glimpse Happiness. This may sound very mysterious and obscure, but believe it or not you have already begun the process by questioning why 'all of a sudden' The World does not revolve around you. It is important, Caprice, to question everything and follow that up with answers (from within and from others in The World) and then begin again by questioning those answers.

As The World said, you may not have wanted to hear this, but it is my way.

Sincerely,
The Universe

Dear Caprice,

I would like to apologize for not previously responding immediately as you would have liked, but of late I have had many affairs to attend to.

I have read the response from The Universe and I agree that reality does not allow for excessive hand-holding. I also appreciate his/her comment on my generosity and I believe you should take that to heart. Much of the rest of her/his response (I believe) borders on hibbety-jibbety, but nonetheless ...

Whether you look for answers from within (as The Universe suggested) or from those who have passed or are passing through me, I would recommend study and empirical analysis. There is much to learn and (regardless of your age) you are just beginning. It will be tough at times but you will learn much from the unavoidable pain and adversity found in your path. And now I must send you on your way. I am sorry I can no longer hold your hand as much as you would like. Good Luck Caprice.

Sincerely,
The World

Dear World (and Universe),

I have discussed this matter at length with my sister, Constance, and though I don't like it, I can see it is your way; and I guess I don't have a lot of say; for now. Thank you for your efforts.

Sincerely,
Caprice Warren