Happiness at a Crossroads

February 1, 2017.

For a few months now...

Until last night...

Once or (maybe) twice a week, it was like a single live wire, bare at the end, and one or two or three quick jabs as if the voltage was searching for a secret entrance. On occasion it was also a gentle brushing caress; an electrical tickle.

Last night, about 10 pm, falling deeper into sleep, I was yanked from the depths by a JOLT! You know that cusp when you're coming awake but you can still inhabit your minds eye. In that place I saw a mesh gridwork of bare wires, crackling; alive. In slow motion I saw it flatten, then curl, and surround; and like a jellyfish enfolding its prey, I saw it embrace my very being. As I watched the tiny copper crossroads embed themselves, I felt the Jolt. Then it released its grip, and floated (or swam) away.

Only a few seconds...

...that bespoke an eternity.

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Studying Happiness

According to a study comparing blackbirds residing in a city and those living in the country, an ornithologist has

"found that city birds start their workdays earlier and their biological clocks tick faster. Just like their human counterparts, they adopt a faster pace, work longer hours, and work and sleep less in cities... Urban males also molt sooner and reach sexual maturity faster. In contrast, country blackbirds begin their day traditionally, at sunrise, don't rush, and sleep longer."

According to other animal researchers reporting on this metropolitan influence,

"we've caused at least ten urban species to grow brains that are 6 percent larger than those of their country cousins."

These quotes come from the book "The Human Age: The World Shaped by Us" written by Diane Ackerman. I have read, (and I believe), that similar results apply to Humans. In our neverending quest for Happiness, it appears we have unwittingly added both stress and intelligence, and each one's accompanying benefits and burdens. Depending upon the moment, this can be both encouraging and discouraging.

By stressing over stress, we are driven to search for ways to eliminate, (or at least limit), the adversity and pain. This in turn creates a necessity for more and more unique, clever, and often complex solutions. Which in turn, over several recent generations, has added to both individual and collective intelligence. Proposed solutions have ranged from spiritual to political to technological to philosophical to instructional to affiliations and loyalties to health and wellness to pleasure-seeking to creative expression to compassionate understanding to nonproductive (quiescent or harmful) escape to divisions of power and on and on and on, continuing to branch into ever-more specialized subsets, all seeking avoidance of pain and adversity.

Collectively we can no longer ignore the volumes of available knowledge that has come as a result of these changes, though individually many of us still practice the dictum "Ignorance is Bliss." We need to take a hint from our enlarged intelligence and use it to rein in our enlarged egos. We need to ignore the divisive customs and beliefs that have been handed down through the generations, and we need to adopt a tolerant, compassionate worldview that will lead us to common ground. We need to shape and mold our learning to accommodate the necessity of universally productive interdependence; and to do this we need to embrace the unavoidable pain of adversity.

I am skirting territory I've covered multiple times so I will veer this direction, take a left at the light, a right at the windmill, and search for unexplored ground in this area.

These are winding roads.

I find myself back in the same general vicinity.

I see one representation of ignorance over there gently pushing and coaxing and wheedling and encouraging intelligence up that steep hill, as intelligence looks back appreciatively. Over there I see another representative of ignorance laid back with his hands clasped behind his head, in the deep shade of that apple tree, eyes half closed, watching intelligence frolic aimlessly in the sunshine. And over there, yet another agent of ignorance is playfully tackling intelligence from behind and the two of them are gamboling about at the base of another steep hill where intelligence had been looking up contemplating a climb.

Intelligence comes from ignorance. The moment, (any moment), an individual leaves their ignorance dozing in the shade and allows their intelligence to prance in the sunlight, is a moment of triumph for ignorance. In order to advance my intelligence I must be conscious of and inspired by my ignorance. Instead, I too often believe that my intelligence so dwarfs my ignorance as to make it nonexistent or, at the very least, inconsequential. I ignore my ignorance at my own peril.

(The 3 examples below are taken from "The Chronicle of Higher Education" January 20, 2017 - Volume LXIII, Number 20.)

  • To see that a convicted gunman killed nine African-Americans after he Googled "black on white crime" and was led to a white supremacist Web site that confirmed his "truth" that "black violence on white Americans is a crisis" though all reliable statistics show "most violence against white Americans is committed by other white Americans"...
  • To hear that our new President has verbally validated the "truth" found in the National Enquirer...
  • To read that college students, (from Yale, no less), believe the "truth" that "It is your---(Yale's)---job to create a place of comfort and home!... ...It is not about creating an intellectual space!" And when a Professor failed to do this to their satisfaction, circumstance dictated that he resign his residential position and Yale apologized to the students...

...I have to ask, how many of us are prancing in the sunlight?

For more than five years, as represented through this site, I have worked in my daily Life to be actively hopeful. Early in this post I stated that the combination of greater stress and greater intelligence can be both encouraging and discouraging. In this moment, I have moved past the stress, believing it is a given if we are to progress as is currently necessary. In this moment, I am much more discouraged (and disgusted) by this triumph of ignorance. Though it feels counterintuitive to cultivate ignorance in order to attain greater intelligence, I remain actively hopeful that in greater and greater numbers each one of us will acknowledge our personal ignorance and it will aid and inspire each one of us to climb ever-steeper hills.

I believe we have little choice.

Okay. Back in my transport I will veer right at that fork up ahead, stay true at the next crossroads, make a sharp left at the roundabout, and stop at the scenic overlook on the top of the hill. It is a beautiful view with the sun shining on the lush green valley sloping up to the gleaming skyscrapers that are reflecting sunlight back onto the forest canopy to the north. I look to the south and see foreboding thunderheads gathering and seemingly making their ponderous way toward the urban sprawl. I may have left a window open and I know I left the dog out. The kids will be home soon, and there's dinner to fix, and I promised Movie Night, and... So much to do...

So I get up from the table, walk across the kitchen, close the window, open the back door for the dog, explore the pantry and refrigerator, consider movie choices, and smile inwardly at my ignorance.

So much to do...

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Exclusive Happiness

This week I completed some required diversity training at my workplace. One topic was inclusion. One slide said, "Inclusion means ensuring that all members of society have equivalent access and opportunities in life." A noble thought. The slide went on to say, "Fighting exclusion of individuals or groups based on race, sex, gender and gender identity, sexual orientation, age, religion, height/weight, disability, marital/parental status and other similar characteristics is an important part of creating an inclusive environment." Again, these are worthy objectives, (even though it is basically saying 'fighting exclusion is an important part of inclusion'). Despite the inanity of this statement, one day I believe a majority of us will understand the importance of an all-encompassing Universal inclusion. But...
  1. At our current rate of progress it may be too late;
  2. It feels like these efforts toward inclusion are mostly driven by those already included;
  3. It feels like those already included are those with greater access to power / money;
  4. It feels like those designated for inclusion are those with much less access to power / money; and
  5. By making these designations, those already included with greater access to power / money, are ensuring that those "to be included" are reminded of their place.

Think about the following:
  • If we focus on inclusion, we focus on differences, which (though typically unspoken), reinforce divisiveness by clearly identifying an us and a them.
  • To practice Inclusion one must direct their thoughts outwardly toward others.
  • This practice of inclusion is condescending, partially because inclusion assumes another individual 'wants' to be a part of your group.
  • Teaching and preaching inclusion may simply encourage political correctness and perpetuate divisiveness.
  • This practice of inclusion subverts, then nullifies, the necessity of inner truthfulness.

Instead of inclusion (as described above), I recommend exclusion (as described below):
  • To practice exclusion one must direct their thoughts inwardly toward oneself.
  • To practice exclusion I must first realize that I am no more and no less necessary than any other past, present, or future individual;
  • which forces me to acknowledge that if I must work to include others, others must also work to include me;
  • which logically reminds me that, (though I may not realize it from the warmth, security, and comfort of my in-group's womb), I am every bit as excluded as every other (past, present, and future) individual.
  • Once I analyze and absorb this information, I realize that, (because I have a sense of "me" and because I cannot NOT see things from this internal, biased perspective), my perspective requires me to put an emphasis on my personal exclusion; a greater emphasis than what I put on either the exclusion or inclusion of others.
  • When I do this, at best I am expending my effort to make productive contributions so I may (on occasion) be included when and where I choose.
  • And when I expend my effort in this regard, it becomes unnecessary to expend effort outwardly toward inclusion of others because I am the one that is excluded and working to be included.
  • Additionally, (by sincerely excluding myself first), this practice demands that I be more tolerant of others.
  • And I have discovered that when, through this practice of exclusion, I make productive contributions, suddenly we are of one mind;
  • which I believe is the ultimate, stated purpose of  inclusion.
  • In other words, exclusion has the potential to create one Universal group of excluded individuals, each one more understanding of each other one within their common ground of exclusion.
  • This in turn, by augmenting tolerance and understanding, allows for continued diversity, and individual and group expression, still within this common ground.
  • We will never find an authentic common ground with inclusion.
  • Inclusion is badly misdirected.
  • Inclusion (as it is currently practiced) may be a baby step toward this personal practice of exclusion; but we need giant steps---before it is too late.
  • Perhaps instead of "Exclusion" (which may carry some negative connotation), we should think of this as Esoteric Isolation leading to a universally productive interdependence.
  • Practicing exclusion may create a painful sensitivity to injustice and unfairness that in turn may lead to uncontrolled anger or other destructive turmoil.
  • I cannot fight injustice or unfairness from the comfort and security of my position as a white, college-educated male.
  • Nor can I fight injustice and unfairness as an over-50, under-employed, disabled man.
  • I can only fight injustice and unfairness by making productive contributions as an excluded individual working to be included.
  • Esoteric isolation is very difficult. By nature we are a social animal, and peer pressure is very real.
  • The greater one's feelings of comfort and security, and the greater one's access to power / money, the greater the difficulty in practicing esoteric isolation.
  • Esoteric isolation requires a degree of inner stoicism and discipline sufficient to overcome the potential for destructive turmoil in the face of inner truthfulness.

Conclusions (in this moment):
  • If the roles were reversed---(between those included with access, and those excluded with much less access)---I believe the reversal would ultimately include the practices (as described above), and we would ultimately be no better off.
  • To progress more rapidly, (as I believe is necessary to avoid "too late"), a very large majority of those included with access must choose esoteric isolation and practice exclusion as described above.
  • I believe this to be unlikely.
  • I will continue to fight injustice and unfairness by making productive contributions as an excluded individual working to be included.

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Molding Happiness

This past week I have derived considerable satisfaction and pleasure on three different fronts: home, work, and family. All three efforts have required much creative planning and organization, two have been in process for months, one for weeks, and all three are coincidentally nearing a point of culmination; though only one will bring closure while the other two will move forward to an advanced stage. I believe it is the accident of simultaneous climax that has intensified the pleasure. I am, (if not frequently), consistently satisfied with (what I see as) various stimulating peaks of creativity, but seldom have come to the strength of multiple gratifications as I have in this past week. I believe the anticipation of further fulfillment on two fronts also adds to that pleasure. And I believe I have just discovered the mechanics underlying the intensity.

Creative planning and organization is merely the headline. Delving deeper, all three of these processes required a translation from one language to another, and a molding and shaping to transform this new language into an engaging and substantial palpability readily understood and appreciated. Whether the first language is raw data, a plethora of jumbled words and pictures, or a spiked wheel of suggestions and ideas, to make the complex appear understandable to those who don't speak "complex" may appear to be magic. It is not magic. But it is satisfying. And pleasurable.

In one of these "successful" struggles. I had to keep reminding myself of my three rules for creative projects:

  1. You want to get it Perfect.
  2. You have to get it Good.
  3. You have to understand Diminishing Returns.

Rule #1 applies to all hands-on planning and execution. Rule #2 applies to all down-time away from your project. Rule #3 does not kick in until the project is somewhere between 90 and 95 percent complete. (Of course it is not quite this simple as there are many "mini" projects within the scope of the larger project, creating a cyclical web of Perfect, Good, and Diminishing Returns.) In this particular project I had to keep reminding myself of these three rules and their cyclical nature because the individual I was working with only had two rules:

  1. You want to get it Perfect.
  2. You have to get it Perfect.

We did not get it Perfect. She did not receive a Perfect result, and in the end she was okay with that; but in the process she had many more ups and downs and (I am guessing) less overall enjoyment than I experienced.

It was a good week. Not Perfect; but Good.

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Simple Happiness

It was a heart-sinking, heart-shrinking, heart-thinking moment. This prevalent prioritization of nonessential concerns leaves me wrung out. In my ignorance, I am still on occasion entertained and amused; and even participatory. In recent years this has more frequently progressed to sadness and anger, which in turn has propelled me toward self-education and efforts to persuade. And ultimately now this has evolved into these feelings of helplessness and futility.

I believe that (unfortunately) it will always be a majority of all individuals that fall into this consensus complicity of simplicity, choosing easy over difficult; choosing divisiveness over common ground; choosing ineptitude over meaningful accomplishment; choosing personal satisfaction and gain---in this moment, in this Lifetime, over the advancement and (possible) survival of all Humanity---past, present, and future.

I believe it is a fear of growing closer to death that urges us to make these choices. I believe it is a choice between relevance and irrelevance; but I believe that a majority of us mistake individual recognition and self-congratulations as relevance and overlook the actual relevance of difficult, meaningful, universally-applicable progress because we fear we may not stand out in the crush of the larger common ground. We do not want to be lost in a crowd.

Standing in that crowd, (imagined though it may be), I do feel crushed; and lost. But I believe my feelings are due to the imaginary nature of this crowd. I believe that to fill this common ground with the energy of worldwidespread interdependence would leave me feeling exhilarated; as opposed to helpless. I believe I must continue to work very hard at self-education and (when and where I'm able), persuasion, because I believe there is a limit to how much my heart can sink - and shrink - and think - before it ultimately bursts.

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