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So am I going to write this week? It's Friday. Due tomorrow. At first I was thinking about homelessness. Serious subject. Important subject. Sad subject. Lots of fodder. Not really enough time now due to other priorities. Maybe next week. I moved on to the fact that I want to write a cookbook. Maybe start on that? Introduction? Reasoning? Make it part of this completely ignored unread site? Nyahhh. Then I considered data processing; the cycle. Garbage in, garbage out. The integrity of the data. Analysis. Where does analysis fit? Maybe. Fodder: readily available and of little value. An apt description for all the good that my attempts at presenting serious, important, sad realities does. Hopeless Happiness. Fodder. Perhaps instead of “A Philosophy of Happiness and Hope” I should change the tagline to Garbage In Garbage Out. I input serious, important, sad realities, objective expertise, consensus fact, perceived by a vocal majority as fodder, garbage, and because (unfortunately) perception is reality, the resulting output is garbage. Collection. Preparation. Input. Processing. Output. Analyzing. Repurposing. Seven steps in which we should dig deep for information, meaning and purpose. In most instances it feels instead like we barely scrape at the surface for the first five steps, completely ignore analysis to choose convention and/or groupthink, and only repurpose according to bureaucracy, dogma and tradition. A new recipe requires collection of new information; data. Preparation is the process of sorting and filtering the ingredient list and directions to add, remove and/or alter amounts, times, temps, methods according to personal preferences based on experience and taste. In addition, preparation necessitates a mindful ordering of the unfolding to come. Input takes the ordered plan and the raw ingredients, transforming the first two steps into adaptable form (washing, rinsing, peeling, chopping, pouring, measuring, cracking, spooning, mincing, slicing, dicing, wrapping, draining, beating, softening, sifting, stirring, cutting, coating, whipping, chilling, separating, drizzling, brushing, brining, proofing, rubbing, melting, marinating, lining, squeezing, whisking, dredging, grinding, greasing, pounding, shredding, clarifying, grating, crushing, zesting, coring, drying, kneading, seasoning, rolling, blending, shaping) to feed into the processing tools for conversion into output. Processing is the simmering, heating, searing, cooking, roasting, baking, sautéing, braising, toasting, broiling, frying, boiling, fermenting, grilling, smoking, cooling, thickening, mixing, melding, mashing, dressing, thinning, glazing, smashing, fusing, sprinkling, pinching, dashing, topping, finishing, all within the processing tools working toward a desirable output. Output: service. Analysis: taste. Repurposing: improvement. My best effort is always yet to come. QIQO: Quintessence In Quality Out.

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Beauty is a nuanced consideration of substantiality and (if present) essentiality. Intuition is a desire for Truth. Faith is a structuring of Intuition. Hope is an acknowledgement that Faith is precarious. Intuition, Faith, Hope are touched by Beauty and specific to the individual. Within this synthesis, where individual essentiality is present alongside substantiality, Love is the result. Love is external, active; selfless compassion that works toward Justice.

I am at a loss how to say this any better. The survival of our species and the health of our planet depends upon a selfless understanding and application of this synthesis resulting in Love.

I get it. We don't love because we don't work because we don't care because we don't have to. Accountability: the state of being answerable. Yet today being answerable only requires justification and justification is self-serving and justification does not require one to care, whereas justice is selfless and justice requires compassion, effort, love. In actuality one is only answerable for oneself to oneself yet answerable for all of Humanity to Humanity or (if one prefers) to God. Because 'we’ don't have to care or work or love does not mean I don't have to. In the end because I am only answerable for me to me, I can justify and those around me will likely agree. But to think about my responsibility to Humanity, to think that in the end I must answer to all of Humanity, past, present and future, as one, in this moment strongly encourages an essentiality to develop alongside any substantiality residing within my personal synthesis of Beauty tugging at Intuition shaping Faith driving Hope guiding Love.

Yet here we are. Still going along with Humanity and all its philosophies and economies and social structures and pretending substantial is essential, to justify. To justify our lack of Justice, our lack of compassion, our lack of Love.

Whether there is a heaven, an afterlife, a reward, or not, I am answerable.

When I consider the inanity of substantiality without essentiality, I ask the question am I better to care, to work, to love from within our system? Or could I make a bigger difference from outside? I am not at all happy about contributing to its perpetuation, but because the system is so super-prevalent, and because it appears power is necessary to have any influence, and because it appears most power comes from wealth, and because my weekly paycheck is necessary simply for my food and shelter, I have so far opted to continue from within so I am less distracted by concerns over basic needs; so I might set some small example, think more clearly, and express these thoughts more rationally. From outside the system I would have an even smaller audience and my anger would predominate, diluting, even negating any inkling of Truth I might possess. This is an example of how our lack of Love further suppresses Love. It makes sense when I recognize that the wealthy and the powerful became so thanks in large part to this same lack of Love. It is Humanity's greatest sin.

We might yet find salvation in…

• Answerability.
• Essentiality.
• Justice.
• Love.

We need to hurry.

Beauty tugs at one's intuitions. One's acknowledged intuitions shape one's faith. Faith drives hope. Hope guides love. Love demands selfless compassion that works toward Justice.

But, because Beauty is “the elegance of meaningful complexity” (Robinson, p. 113), and because my intuitions desire a shortcut to Truth, and because my faith and hope reason from emotion and ego, and because Love has become both exclusive and reclusive, I create a superficial, meaningless complexity and call it essence; though in actuality it is merely substance.

This lack of Love as described contributes to the wealth gap, perpetuates poverty, incites violence, encourages disinvestment, destroys communities and according to some, (including Jesus), is Humanity's greatest sin. Yet we have created philosophies and built entire economies and social structures from this foundation of divisive self-interest.

Shame on us. Shame on me.

If we spread every individual on Earth equidistant apart, each one of us would be parked in the center of a 16 acre square and the next closest person would be 830 feet (nearly three football fields) away. Normal face-to-face conversation, personal human contact, would be impossible. But if every one of us stood side by side and held hands we could encircle this planet 334 times; 7,959,431,958 individuals, as one, hugging the planet. In both scenarios, we are neighbours. In one we are self-centered, divided. In the other we are faithful, active. In which circumstance are we more likely to find Beauty? Which neighbour are we more likely to Love?

Notes and Quotes:

All quotes below (except for the last one) came from “What Are We Doing Here? Essays” written by Marilynne Robinson, published in 2018. All thoughts above came from consideration of this material. Because this week's thought feels incomplete and because no one reads me, I am including my process / inspiration. I may extend this thought into next week, at which time I may delete the notes below from this week's thought.

“our intuitions having to do with the way things are and become are real enough to participate in the elegance of meaningful complexity, which may be one definition of beauty, a necessary if not a sufficient one.” (113)

Bureaucracy is not meaningful and only superficially complex – meaning there is no or very little depth of reason.

“We distract ourselves from powerful, ancient intuitions of the grandeur and richness of being, and of human being, with a reductionist theoretical contraption endlessly refitted in minor ways to survive the collapse of old scientific notions that have sustained it and to present itself once more as the coming thing, with the whole history and prestige of science behind it. Those intuitions, which figure in the highest thought and art civilization has produced, are faith.” (221)

“Hope implies a felt lack, an absence, a yearning.” (225)

“Paul says love will not pass away. John says God is love. At best, hope is an intuition that this could be true, with the kind of essential truth affirmed in eternity, in the Being of God, who is in infinite ways more anomalous even than we are, more improbable even than we are, judged in the terms of a reductionism that is infinitely less useful in his case than in ours. Say that in our difference from everything else we and God are like each other—creative, knowing, efficacious, deeply capable of loyalty. Say that in his healing and feeding and teaching, Jesus let us see that the good that matters to mortal us matters also to eternal God. Then we have every reason to hope.” (236)

“John makes it clear when the claim to love is spurious. He says, “If anyone has the world’s goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God’s love abide in him?”” (245)

“The Samaritan of the parable shows very practical consideration for the needs of the stranger he finds by the road. That is, he very impractically sets no limit to his own generosity. After providing for the stranger’s immediate care, he says he will return to pay any costs that exceed the amount he has left with the innkeeper. Would he know the innkeeper could be trusted? Certainly the parable suggests that prudence, that is to say, considerations of self-interest, should not be brought to bear when demands are made on one’s kindness and generosity. How we have struggled with this! Far more than with the sins we are so much readier to renounce, denounce, dramatize, scorn, conceal, and confess. And this sin, the withholding of kindness and generosity—love is the crucial word in this context—structures entire social systems and philosophies. In his letter, James says, “If a brother or sister is ill-clad and in lack of daily food, and one of you says to them, ‘Go in peace, be warmed and filled,’ without giving them the things needed for the body, what does it profit?” The pious inflection he mimics would have been familiar at any point in history. The Law of Moses makes specific, ongoing provision for the alleviation of poverty, rarely noted. The Hebrew prophets are passionate on the subject, also treating it as the standard by which faith can be tested, and the offense by which the favor of God can be lost. Ezekiel 16:49 says, “Behold, this is the guilt of your sister Sodom: she and her daughters had pride, surfeit of food, and prosperous ease, but did not aid the poor and needy.” This is a good illustration of the fact that there are certain sins as well as certain texts we choose not to dwell on.” (246-247)

“Thomas Aquinas quotes Ambrose: “It is the hungry man’s bread that you detain; the naked man’s cloak that you store away; the poor man’s ransom and freedom that is in the money which you bury in the ground.” And, “He who spends too much is a robber.” And, “It is no less a crime to refuse to help the needy when you are able and prosperous than it is to take away someone else’s property.” Economic polarization was perhaps more visible in his world than in ours, for those of us who live in wealthier countries away from the war zones, though it is certainly here, too. There is now a great deal of prestige associated with being far wealthier than anyone ought to be.” (247)

Matthew 22:37-40

“37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. 38 This is the first and great commandment. 39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. 40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.”

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I have other priorities. First I have to save the world. Then I have to monitor my coronary artery disease. Then I choose to take care of family as best I can. Then there are 233 other priorities. Yet every visit to the dentist they insist that I move my teeth from #237 to #1. Also at their insistence, because plaque apparently likes my teeth as much as it likes my arteries, I now visit for a cleaning three times per year. I can't remember the last time I had a cavity; at least 10 years. And so what if at the age of 62 I still have a baby tooth. According to them this baby tooth has been on the cusp of falling out for forty years and should just be pulled and capped or bridged or some such nonsense that will transfer money I don't have from my pocket to theirs. To be fair, I suppose in that setting, the dentist office, they feel teeth should be the #1 priority because it is their job and they are at work. Still, I have been talked out of wisdom teeth; I am going to hold on to my baby tooth until it leaves me or until I leave it. It is interesting, babies and very young children are curious, questioning, and oh so very actively hopeful. And as I write this I realize that this insistence on suppressing active, hopeful, curious questioning, removing wisdom, and demanding responsible conformity is consistent with our insistence today on bureaucracy, convention, certainty, division. All these years, all these decades, my dentist has merely been practicing conservative politics. Red, blue, or purple, in a capitalist regime or any bureaucracy, peel away two or three top layers and you will find that underneath we are all conservative. We have no choice. And I suppose that leaders, in any setting or circumstance – dentist or politician, Republican or Democrat, Conservative or Liberal – feel that in their role they must project an aura of calm control which requires conservative systematized convention and certainty and discourages anything outside-the-box, much less radical. According to the Scientific American (from October 26, 2020) “On the whole, the research shows, conservatives desire security, predictability and authority.” And today, regardless of contrary proclamations, I see our leadership, our bureaucracy, our system, our selves, as conservative. Yet today, more than ever before, we need radical not only to progress, but to survive. But no. We remain insistent. “Rip that baby tooth out! We don't have time for all the curiosity and questions! And if you refuse to part from it, every time I see you I will remind you that you don't need it; that our way is a better way. And as for those wisdom teeth? They will only cause pain and suffering. We can take them and you can be comfortable with responsible conformity.” Why is it not okay to hold on to a baby tooth? Or to suffer for wisdom? To question the way? To think outside-the-box? I want to believe I am autonomous and in control. You want to believe the same. We fear any threat to our freedom and independence. And because our intelligence exceeds our wisdom, we will always believe that we will always know better. Yet here we sit, every one of us trapped and or suppressed in some way, not by other humans in charge, but by systematized convention, conservative politics, an artificial intelligence in its own right, that will not let go.

Fried Chicken.

To ask a human to not be human is like asking fried chicken to not contribute to heart disease.

Individual humans are going to make mistakes, from misplaced feelings, faulty thinking, rash decisions and actions. When any group of humans (short of all humanity) identify as one, mistakes (and their impact) are multiplied. Where emotion and ego are factored in, reason is diminished.

Our nation is essentially divided into only two factions. One reasons from ego, the other reasons from emotion and ego, and no one opts to reason from objective expertise and/or consensus fact. Emotion and ego will always trump ego alone, yet ego alone continues to be surprised.

Fried Chicken.

To ask a human to not consider emotion and ego is to ask a human to not be human. In our efforts toward objectivity and fairness, we have created a bureaucracy guided by consensus and/or powerful emotion and ego. The bureaucracy is the heart disease and the emotion and ego is the Fried Chicken. It smells good. It looks good. It most definitely tastes good. And it even sounds good (crisping up in that cast iron skillet on the stove) and feels good; (who doesn't love licking greasy crispy bits off their fingers). In excess, as a steady diet, it is not so good. But when we are amongst other like-minded fried chicken fiends and the fervor takes hold, we are likely not going to stop and check in with our heart or our arteries before grabbing that third and fourth leg and thigh. At best we might scoop some more mashed potatoes (plant-based, right?) and milk gravy to maybe temporarily curb our desire for that fifth and sixth piece.

I do not see a day in my lifetime when we will choose to live without our KFC, our Popeye's, our Cane's, Bojangles, Chick Fil'A. Yet there are many individuals who have learned to moderate; reduce the risk. Regarding our politics, (that in their current state inhibit progress), I can do the same; I can moderate by de-identifying and learning to think for myself. But as long as there are powerful factions (or powerful individuals) operating from emotion and ego (or even ego alone), my relatively powerless individual thoughts and actions will remain relatively powerless. Again, emotion and ego will always trump ego alone; and power is fed by ego, driven by emotion and fortified with louder and greater numbers. Individual thought from objective expertise and/or consensus fact does not stand a chance. We do love our fried chicken.

When I think about recent fried chicken feeding frenzies, (January 6, 2021, the NRA convention in Houston, the Texas Republican convention, anywhere and anywhen Trump speaks), I know that in our current arc there is no way to inject objective expertise or consensus fact into the proceedings, and I see no way around all that greasy emotion and ego. I am afraid that we are evolving too slowly.

As long as our politics are human, we will continue to contribute to a misguided bureaucracy. And I believe this misguided bureaucracy is a road to perdition. I don’t have an easy answer.

I am pondering if, perhaps, maybe, the hard, difficult, complex answer involves some degree of artificial intelligence to steer us toward actual Justice instead of our confused concept of bureaucratic fairness.

Because our politics determine our direction and ultimately our future, and because (as humans) our capacity for learning has exceeded our ability to judiciously apply that learning, (our intelligence exceeds our wisdom), I believe we have no choice but to bypass ego and emotion in our politics and turn to artificial intelligence to guide us toward (not merely survival, but) a thriving coexistence with All of Life. The following words are from the 2021 book “AI 2041” by Kai-Fu Lee and Chen Qiufan:

“In just the past five years, AI has beaten human champions in Go, poker, and the video game Dota 2, and has become so powerful that it learns chess in four hours and plays invincibly against humans. But it's not just games it excels at. In 2020, AI solved a fifty-year-old riddle of biology called protein folding. The technology has surpassed humans in speech and object recognition, served up “digital humans” with uncanny realism in both appearance and speech, and earned passing marks on college entrance exams and medical licensing exams. AI is outperforming judges in fair and consistent sentencing, and radiologists in diagnosing lung cancer, as well as powering drones that will change the future of delivery, agriculture, and warfare. Finally, AI is enabling autonomous vehicles that drive more safely on highways than humans.”

So, why not our politics?

Fried Chicken makes this a hard answer. The Colonel will not go quietly.