I could be wrong.

I have been to the cath lab in 2010, 2013, 2015, and 2017. I have 8 stents. I came away with stents in each of these years except 2013. My nature is to think in terms of justification. 2010 was a surprise, obviously justified. In 2013 I was anticipatory. In 2013 the cath found increased buildup but not enough to warrant a stent. In 2013 I jumped the gun. In 2015 I waited too long and found (after the fact) some heart damage and decreased ejection fraction. In 2017 I believe my timing was just about right. I am refining my process for seeing this coming, but due to my proclivity for efficiency, this year I may, (like 2015), find hindsight to be better than foresight. If this is the case, I am hoping my delinquency does not become an occurrence of too late.

Increased and more pronounced pains, (angina?), along with an occasional, (though only mildly disconcerting), aching in my left arm, have me thinking that later this year, or possibly in the first few months of 2021, I have a procedure coming.

I could be wrong.

I feel like I was wrong in 2013, and today I don’t want to spin wheels on unnecessary investigation. I want to cut to the chase and (when the time comes) do what is necessary with no delay. If I go today, there will be investigation and I am uncertain if it would prove to be necessary or unnecessary. I can see how it is possible that I have been sensitized to stable symptoms, making myself believe they are worsening, because of the timing. Since 2010, I have visited the cath lab every 2 – 3 years. My last visit was March 21, 2017. I feel due, and perhaps that is influencing my interpretations. So, I can only conclude that…

…I could be wrong.

I will wait.