Public consensus is I am dying; yet I believe I am still living - and I (to this point) still act in accordance with my belief. At what point will I be swayed by either public consensus or my body's betrayal? Or a combination of both?

I think 60 is the approximate age when the world starts to turn away, especially in new relationships and circumstances, and in opportunity; and, the larger the age / maturity gap between me and power, the more pronounced the lack of consideration.

I think the body's betrayal technically begins the moment one is born but is not recognized as such until it consistently or constantly reminds one of their mortality. Then, by adding one's own mortality to the relationship equation an adversarial dynamic is created that further widens the gap between the individual mortal and the largely immortal public thus making it even more difficult for one to choose to act in accordance with living as opposed to giving in to dying.

Immortals have no time for dying and they resent anyone who is a reminder that it might be a thing. So they turn away and wave their hand peripherally at those reminders and assign us the role of dying so they may live large.

I continue to seek opportunity, new circumstance to contribute, to feel fulfilled; I will continue to act in accordance with living. And, based on recent experience, I will continue, (especially in new circumstance and often in everyday circumstance), to feel ignored, humored, restricted, and sometimes pitied - as if I am dying.