I have spent my entire life believing, trusting, thinking the best. After these 66+ years, is it too late for me to become settled? Accepting? Jaded? In this time and in various capacities I have worked in (or proximate to) business, education, healthcare, banking, and law, and from these experiences perhaps I should be jaded. Perhaps I am becoming more so, partially (mostly?) because I am tired. I work hard, I stand, I fight for improvement, for Good and Right, for Beauty, Truth, Wisdom, Justice; and some days it truly feels all for naught. This has been reflected in recent weeks and months in my thinking and writing; and in recent decisions.
- I retired.
- I went back to work; part time; twice.
- I bought a house - in a smaller town.
- I went back to work; full time.
Some might say I am winding down, but that would be presumptuous; and premature. I would say I have been shifting (perhaps refining) my focus to more accurately acknowledge surrounding reality and changing circumstance. Reality has always been what it is but in recent months, by aligning my life experience with surrounding reality, (in my mind) the future has changed. That said, I cannot forget that though reality has always been what it is, it is still different things to different people. Past and present reality is far, far more subjective than the word implies.
