After three years of employment, it is difficult to continue working for an organization that cares less about quality and process integrity than what a $10 per hour, part-time employee does. Yes, as a representative of the organization, it is absolutely correct that my "caring and dedication" and my "talents and work ethic" are also those of the organization. However, as a $10 per hour, part-time employee, I am unable to approve the resources necessary to maintain the high process standards we purport to be meaningful. And despite recommendations and requests consistently vocalized and substantiated since June, and despite assertions (from management) expressing desires to the contrary, the organization I work for has chosen to deny the vital resources necessary for consistency.

Secondarily, but still important, I personally feel let down. Since October 1, it has been difficult to sit through a Selection Committee meeting, not knowing the candidates being discussed, and unable to provide input as to details that may have otherwise been missed. Before October 1, my favorite part of this job was getting to know the candidates. Now, all I know is numbers. I am disheartened.

Additionally, you have asked me to be patient, believing this transition to full time will eventually happen. Essentially, you are asking me to put my principles on hold for a few months. I cannot simply box up my beliefs and ideals, put them on a shelf, and then, (if I remember where I put them), unpack them again in a few months. If I do not struggle daily, I will forget how.

For these reasons, and because we are now at a point of no return for rescuing this year's integrity, I feel I have no choice but to resign my position. I will no longer work each day within an inferior process whose ripples will remain as a reminder for years to come. I will no longer work each day knowing that we will overlook a number of "superheroes" deserving of in depth consideration as opposed to the cursory glance they now, (since October 1), receive. I will no longer work each day for an organization that makes a decision by not making a decision, and explains their actions by not explaining their actions. Within this framework of no decision and no explanation, there is considerable maneuverability for no accountability; there is much to interpret between the lines.

I have been told that I care too much. I do not believe that is possible, but I do understand why those who care about me, might say so. I also understand that disappointments are inevitable; especially when I am paying attention. But when a disappointment becomes entrenched in a specific circumstance, I have found it better, (whenever possible), to move on.

It is time to move on...

*The letter above was written this week. I have not yet definitively determined if I will follow through. Assertions and verbal reassurance from management continues, as recently as Thursday of this week. If I ultimately decide to follow through, I will add further substantiation here or in future posts.