Last week I ended the post 'The Art and Magic of Happiness' with "Magic is a song of fear - Art is a dance of courage." This week I heard that song of fear and I am dancing that dance of courage; it seems though, that so far this week I am not dancing fast enough, and, I have two left feet. It is interesting that some sing the song to others and(/or) some sing it to themselves, whereas the dancers typically dance alone. My impression is that at any given moment there are many more singers than dancers, and the members of the audience far outnumber the entertainers. I believe those who cannot sing well, simply don't; they sit in the audience and listen; (though we all sing in the shower). But there are many dancers who simply must dance, regardless; and it is scary to dance alone. The audience can be unkind. To dance alone often invites criticism and may create some insecurities and uncertainty. Some dancers combat this by adding song to their dance; sometimes their own - sometimes another; this is a mistake; this song of fear (as a reflection of Magic) takes away from the dance. It is best to dance through the insecurities and embrace the uncertainty.
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For a couple of days I have been attempting to ignore uncertainty and I have added song to my 'now-frenzied' dance, all in search of certainty and safety. I feel uncertainty shadowing me; closely.
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I am unable to ignore it, so now I have stopped singing, turned around, once again embraced uncertainty, and we are doing a slow waltz while I catch my breath.
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Three days ago, I felt I had lost my moorings. While it is scary to dance alone, I experienced more fear chasing the siren song of safety and certainty. The quiescence of conformity is stifling. The potential found in this ineffable (perilous?) dance with uncertainty is preferable.
"Magic is a song of fear." Safety and certainty is a sham; a reflection of the singer's repressed fear and an illusion of hope for those listening.
"Art is a dance of courage." A dance with uncertainty; a dance of solitude; a dance of potential.